Looking for attachment…and executive function…

So, I am looking for tests of attachment in preschool children.  Ainsworth’s strange situation test was designed for infants…surely…

Protocols for the HTKS task have arrived, many thanks to Claire Cameron Ponitz and Megan McClelland.  Very clearly written and easy to follow – and look like they will be really engaging activities for preschoolers.  

I am confident that I will have the tasks measuring attachment and initiative finalised by this afternoon.  Appointment has been made with the stats advisor.   Then it’s time.  I am so excited.

Tuesday 9:45am

So…it is Tuesday.  The day following my meeting where Supervisor Don where he suggested that I make a list of everything I have to do with a date to do it by on a whiteboard I discovered Astrid.  Astrid is a to-do-list program that takes the tasks from my computer and nags me from somewhere in the cloud via my android to do what I said I was going to do when I said I was going to do it.  

‘Excuse me!  You said you were going to finish entering the papers for your lit review today.  Have you done it yet?’  “What are you doing right now?  You said you would email Professor X to arrange a meeting to discuss self regulation in preschoolers.’  

Not only that, but you can customise the program to send emails to significant other parties.  I set it up to send emails to my husband at work – just to see how and whether it worked and can’t work out how to delete him.  For the past week it has been a variant of the same amused greeting,  ‘Hello, so, I see you finally input the papers for your lit review today – good for you.’  I am sure this will start wear thin soon.  And Astrid is far better than my old system of writing notes on anything that came to hand and losing them as quickly as they were written.   And there she goes again…I just wish I didn’t feel like I was 11-years-old.  Or maybe I do… 

Stage fright…

Well, it is Tuesday.  I have set up all of my tasks to complete this phase of the thesis.  Today I am scheduled to write the revised consent forms, but I have a giant knot in my stomach.  Why?  I am worried about the design.  I am worried I am going to get it wrong.  I am worried that no-one else will like my design.  It is fine while it is in my head, but once it is out there it is go time – and then what?  So if I just read some more papers…I will find the magic answer…

Am I the only person who uses research to procrastinate?  It is the best, seriously.  I look like I am working hard when what I am actually doing in vacillating.  Too scared to move forward, too stubborn to stop.

I must write these forms today.  Astrid is nagging and nagging and nagging and I have a meeting with the statistician that I MUST be ready for, and appointments that must be made.

So here’s to ethics and all its forms.  I can do this…I really can…